It is almost Thanksgiving so that means getting in the Christmas spirit. Two years ago I would have had my trees up by now, yes trees! This year I am letting my daughter decorate the tree. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't even put one up at all. I am just not in the spirit at all. Christmas is a reminder of so many things. This year it will be 18 months since we delivered William into heaven. It will also be one year since we miscarried. And to top it off I should be days away from delivering a perfectly healthy baby. Instead the 3 of us will celebrate us. No babies, no toddlers. Don't get me wrong I am so blessed to have Delainee and David to spend Christmas with. That doesn't make my heart not hurt. It doesn't make my heart not weep for what should be. This is the new me. This is my reality. There will always be empty seats at our table, always.
My dear friend and photographer Lora created the most amazing family pictures for us. She is wonderful and I know her heart breaks with mine. You can check her out at www.milesandme.com. She is also on Facebook at milesandme. Here are the wonderful pictures she created for us.
Also here is the tree Delainee decorated! She did great!
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