We will always remember

Today was our second time going to the Remembrance of Life event put on my Methodist Women's Hospital and Healthcare. It just amazes me how such an event can just bring every emotion to surface again. I remembered the faith I had that our twins would both be ok because Delainee beat the late heartbeat and we had a flawless pregnancy (besides hives but seriously that was nothing now)! Then when we found out that baby A's heartbeat stopped. I put all of my faith into William being perfect! And everything was. I was good and sick and he was growing perfectly. Then our world was shattered when we went in and found out he has just died. Delivering a baby you can't take home is not something anyone should have to do. Then Christmas right as we let off balloons I knew my pregnancy was once again coming to an end and it was confirmed a few days later. We knew William was perfect but we didn't know if our other babies were perfect on earth so we did another round of ivf and tested us, me and embryos and transferred 2 genetically normal embryos. One took and I saw the little heart beating on ultrasound. David wasn't with me because of planting being so crazy this year and I face timed him and had the ultrasound picture showing when he answered. I tried to take a screenshot of his reaction but did it wrong (I was a lot excited). He came in really close and said is that a baby?! I had bleeding the day before so we were worried but it was just normal implantation bleeding left over and there was a heartbeat and the day after my birthday we went up and like with William our baby had just passed! So 4 babies in right around a year. FOUR! So today and everyday we remember our babies until we meet in Heaven. This isn't how I expected our story to go but it is our story.