Feeling Bummed...

I went in on September 4 for my cycle day 3 baseline ultrasound and got the all clear to start Follistim. I started at 75iu a day and was scheduled to go back September 9. Well I went back today and only small follies and I just got the call my E2 (Esterase) level is 49, it should be 100's. So my dose is increased to 225iu a day! Triple what I was on. I go back Thursday the 12th for an ultrasound and blood work. I am praying with all of my heart that this helps! I wouldn't have had enough medication for that high of a dose so luckily my Dr. gave me a sample to add to mine. That saves a considerable amount of $ but moving forward if this cycle doesn't work and my dose was that high it will be so much more $ then I could have ever expected! Just really don't know what to think at this point. I want to be hopeful but just feeling bummed right now. Hopefully Thursday I will fell better about this.


Well I went back yesterday (September 12th) and I had 1 follie on each side measuring 12 which was an increase from 7 so yay! I had lots of little ones she said which hopefully they don't decide to start responding because we don't need to over stimulate and then have a wasted cycle. But I am not going to focus on the what if I am going to focus on the fact that there are 2 follies that are growing! I am continuing on 225iu a day until Sunday and will go back then to have my blood drawn and ultrasound. Oh and I forgot to mention Monday my E2 was 49 Monday and 534 yesterday! So I am responding nicely! They want your level to be 200-600 per mature follie when you trigger and so far I am in that range for when that time comes and it should only rise!

September 15- Well my fear happened :( I over stimulated. 8 eggs were nearly mature so the cycle was canceled. Very bummed! So now the wait is on once again. I am sad that we have to start over with a new cycle, and mad that we spent so much $ on medicine but glad I guess that the first cycle is behind us and we can all learn from it and know what to expect. The dr will be more conservative next cycle so hopefully I won't over produce. We could have continued this cycle but we weren't willing to reduce in the event of more then 3 babies and a multiple pregnancy above that is just too dangerous and my Dr won't proceed, which I can't say I blame her. We certainly couldn't imagine that many babies either because it would involve so many risks. So we are in Omaha and going to enjoy the day with Delainee at Amazing Pizza Machine. :) 

September is PCOS Awareness Month

How ironic is it that our first fertility treatment is going to be during PCOS Awareness Month? PCOS is real and so many people could be living with it and don't even know it! That is my main reason for not keeping my disease and struggle a secret. I hope by me being open about my story I can  help even one women discover that she too may be going through the same thing and not getting the answers that I did not get. For a long time I had a feeling I had PCOS. I would say the first time I brought it up to my OBGYN was the summer before I meet David so that would have been 2006. I had been going to a different OBGYN for irregular bleeding but instead of the absent bleeding I often had I had spotting a lot. Well I switched to a different OBGYN and he did an ultrasound and I had a polyp in my uterus. Simple fix with surgery. I mentioned then that my younger sister was diagnosed with PCOS and wondered if I could have it. I was assured he didn't think I did. The next time I questioned it with the same Dr. would have been June 2008 when we had tried to get pregnant for 6 months. Again he wasn't worried about PCOS but checked my thyroid and it was normal. We found out in August I was pregnant and had a relatively normal pregnancy. After Delainee was 1 we decided we would start trying again because it took over 6 months last time so that would be a perfect age apart. So fast forward to 6 months of trying and getting periods that last a month long after irregular periods. Went to family practitioner and had a ultrasound done and there was nothing wrong. I was told to go on birth control to regulate my period. Seriously? I am trying to get pregnant! I took it for one month and still had bleeding for a month so called my OBGYN. Again I asked about PCOS and it was pushed to the side. I was put on provera to regulate my period and clomid and should be pregnant by summer. Well that was summer of 2011. March 2013 I went to a Endocrinologist where my best friend just so happened to work. I had blood tests done for PCOS finally. And got the news, everything looked normal! How is that possible!? I just knew it was PCOS and now no answers! I was referred to Dr. Doherty but had a 16 week waiting period to get in to see her for a consultation. Someone with such a long wait has to be worth it! So in July we went and had our consultation and she told me right away I have PCOS and wrote me a script for Metformin and Provera. I had a test done to look and make sure my tubes are open and uterus looks good and it was a go for that. So now we just wait for my cycle to start so we can go back and see if we get the green light for fertility medication! This is kind of a rambling post but the point I am trying to make is if you don't think you are getting the answers you should find someone who will keep digging for you and specializes in your problem. Infertility is a disease, you wouldn't trust your heart to a dermatologist would you? So why trust your infertility to someone that doesn't specialize in it? An OBGYN can get you farther but a Reproductive Endocrinologist is who will really know what to look for. If you read this and have any questions you would like to keep private email me thompsonmelissa@hotmail.com or if you have me on FB message me. I certainly don't know all there is to know but I do have personal experience.