Ready or not...

Well the FedEx man came with a special delivery today! 

My fertility meds are here! Very mixed emotions are going on for me. I am ready for the next step but never thought this would be our reality. The odds are not in our favor for this to work the first time but we will continue to pray that God has this happen when he feels that it is best, not when we do. So now all I can do is wait for my period to start! Took my last Prevera today so hopefully within a few days and then praying everything looks good so we are good to go! Asking for continued prayers during this time and times to come. Have a wonderful Labor Day weekend!

No normal cycle for this girl

Well Friday would have been a 28 day cycle and sure enough no call no show. Now I am not going to fire my reproductive system but if she was in the workforce that would happen! I took an ovulation test and it was positive! So I had hope! Well turns out after talking to a nurse at Dr. Doherty's office yesterday with PCOS there is LH in my system at all times so it can show up a false positive, PCOS strikes again! So that was a bummer because I still had hope maybe just maybe we could do this on our own without needles and hormones. But I did get the all clear to start Provera again. Provera is a pill that I take 10 days and then after I am done taking it I should start my period within a few days. Last time it was within 2 days so if my calculations are right it should start the weekend of our 6th anniversary! Happy Anniversary Babe ;). Then comes labor day so praying it starts on our anniversary as crazy as that sounds because they would likely schedule my ultrasound for Tuesday instead of the Holiday. They are a 7 day clinic with extremely limited hours on weekends and holidays. So limited that we would have to be there before 7:30 in the morning! So pray that our appointment would land after the holiday! David won't be able to go with me to our appointment because he will have to take Delainee to school. Regular office days for those types of appointments are before 9:30 and it is in West Omaha so nearly a 2 hour drive. I will hopefully have company from someone so I don't have to make that drive by myself. I am going to call and order my injections today since I know we will need them in the next couple weeks, as long as the ultrasound looks good when I get my cycle. Please pray everything goes great so that we can get this ball rolling. The "odds" aren't great with IUI but we are working against 0% luck in the last 3+ years so it is better then that! I can't say how much we appreciate each and every prayer and will continue to appreciate them. We could be facing some happy or sad times ahead but God has a plan for us.

In other news our daughter started her second year of preschool yesterday! She is one of the "big kids this year". So crazy she is already this old! She was so excited for school yesterday and even today still! Here is a couple pictures of her before school!

 

 

 

This is soon my reality

So I have been thinking a lot about the next step in our journey. And this is what it looks like.

Alcohol wipes, needles, injection pen and a sharps container. I wouldn't say I am afraid of needles. I have four tattoos after all. I just can't imagine giving myself shots or David for that matter! But I better just get over that because reality is David will be giving me shots and if he is unavailable I will have to do it myself. We opted for the pen type rather then the one that goes in the buttock (like how I'm being proper. Lol) so I could do it myself but hope I won't. I would probably need a stiff drink before that and they prefer you drink in moderation while doing fertility treatments! :) Anyone that knows me knows that won't be a problem because I don't have a taste for alcohol. Another benefit with the pen is no mixing. With the inter-muscular injections (in the butt) we would mix powder with saline solution then suck it up into the syringe and then change the needle because you don't use the same one to inject. With the pen that little creamer looking container in the picture has the needle. You screw it on to the end of the pen which will have the medicine in it. You dial the pen in at the end for how many units you are to use and then inject. Pretty dummy proof! Then unscrew the needle part and put it in the sharps container and put the pen in the fridge. That is it! We can do this! Now praying my cycle will start on a "normal" time so we can get started.   

Nothing new on the home front

I haven't updated for a while but there isn't anything new with our journey. Just the waiting game! And this feels like the longest time of my life! I am so ready to move on to the next step and in order to do that we have to wait for my next cycle. I am just praying it is normal because of the metformin so that we will at least be moving on sooner! I haven't been doing the low carb like I should but as long as I stay away from sweets it doesn't bother me too much. But then I made this and well I just had to suffer from it because it is so damn good!

This is chocolate chocolate chip zucchini bread. It tastes like brownie! So so so good! I highly recommend you getting on Pinterest and searching the recipe! I made some more the next day and put them in the freezer for the day when I can eat it without a belly ache! 

We took Delainee down to KC to T-Rex on Wednesday and stayed in a hotel. That girl loves staying in a hotel! David said our next trip should be to the T in town because she would love it just as much. Lol. Although part of the excitement is the swimming pool so Tarkio probably wouldn't qualify! We also did a little shopping and she got way into it! I mean dressing room and all! I am not a big shopper myself only for Delainee so at least David will only be in trouble with her and not me too! Here she is when we were getting ready to leave Thursday

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This is one of her new dresses that she picked out! She couldn't pass up a good photo op! She said mom here take my picture by this! She is so fun! I don't know what I would ever do without her. Never a dull moment! 

Well that is about all of the excitement we have has lately! Happy Friday!